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The look of love is in your eyes
A look your smile can’t disguise

Today was a long day, filled with frustration, and sometimes more upsetting than what I would care to regurgitate.

The look of love
Its saying so much more than just words could ever say

There’s usually a certain limit that I would kind of measure my sometimes state of depression. The lesser it affects me, the easier it is that I can brush it away, eg, simple internet browsing can take my mind off it. When it can’t…well, I basically go through some simple actions and if THAT doesn’t take it away, I know that I’m down in the dumps for real.

And what my heart has heard, well, it takes my breath away

And I know that when I’m having to order a meal for two, that’s when I’m in some serious need for some distraction.

I can’t hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited, waited to love you now that I have found you

So this song played continuously whilst I read an ebook and stained my hands with greasy chicken wings and chips. That’s right, folks. I’m one of those multitasking guys.

You’ve got the look of love is on your face
A look that time can’t erase

I was with CrazyRunner today and he asked me whether I felt lonely. An odd question to ask but considering he could speak fluent English but Chinese was still his preferred medium, I thought that it was a mental translation error of some sort. I decided to probe a little further.

“Oh, I was just wondering how you were coping with being away from your family and friends and your girlfriend and everything familiar.”

Oh. That.

Behind tonight, let this be just the start of so many nights like this
Lets take a lover’s vow and then seal it with a kiss

I couldn’t really say. Part of my coping mechanism was that I was used to it. I was used to having a long distance relationship with everyone I knew, one way or another. Parents. Family. Friends.

Ever since I made the decision to move out of the family home in Dunners, I had learnt to rely on myself. I kept the ties but I took pride in being self reliant. Self sufficient. That I owe no one nothing, not even an act of kindness.

I can’t hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited, waited to love you now that I have found you

What probably doesn’t help that fact is that I enjoy my own solitude immensely. I’m a person who can keep myself entertained for days. I find my own joy in so many little things. Perhaps, its purely distractions. By keeping my mind occupied, I don’t remember. I don’t remember that I’m alone.

Don’t ever go, don’t ever go
I love you so

And sometimes….I wonder, if its probably better that way.

Hm.

But on a more cheery note…this cracked me up. Probably why I don’t think I can ever sit through Tangled without giggling my head off.