As of late, I've been having daily arguments with people around me and I'm just getting sick and fed up of it.
A lot of it stems from the fact that my job is now in a bit of position where I'm not even sure where I'll be at the end of the month and three months from now seems a bit too long to wait and see what happens. Naturally, when your job security hangs on the end of a very thin rope, you start to panic a little bit. And then you start becoming a bit of a sourpuss and you start to rant and rave and talk to anyone in the near vicinity about how sh|t the company is and how badly you hate being in this position and for most people, they will tell me to harden the fsck up and find another job elsewhere.
I think sometimes, just being in this situation allows for some negativity.
Or maybe too much. I'm playing Devil's Advocate with everyone and anyone I can find and apparently, I used to be a really positive person. What brings me down to this level? What has dropped the angels from the heavens, the bluebird from its perch, the wisps of clouds floating by in an azure sky?
Reality. That's what.
If dreams are wonderful things that fill your headspace in the quiet of night and leaves you with a gentle smile tugging at the corner of your lips, reality is the harsh, no-nonsense, jarring alarm that summons you out of bed with a jolt wayyy too early in the morning.
There was another meeting this afternoon to talk about our new roles as therapists as well as sales reps so now, we'll be making the rounds to see doctors and whatnot. Me, playing advocate for the opposing team, threw answers and thoughts into the air against the very IDEA of going to see doctors. But oh well, I think I've got to try and make it work somehow.
You know how sometimes, there's so many things floating in your head that you can't ever really get things in place? Prioritised?
Yeah, it feels like that sometimes.
Had to end up listening to a few motivational songs to give me a bit of a spirit boost and funnily enough, Eminem's "Lose Yourself" hit the right spot at the right time, along with Scribe's "Dreaming." Haven't heard those songs in ages although to be honest, Busta Rhymes's "We Made It" could have just about the same awesome job as well.
Meh. I'm tired today. Nights, all.
If dreams are wonderful things that fill your headspace in the quiet of night and leaves you with a gentle smile tugging at the corner of your lips, reality is the harsh, no-nonsense, jarring alarm that summons you out of bed with a jolt wayyy too early in the morning.
There was another meeting this afternoon to talk about our new roles as therapists as well as sales reps so now, we'll be making the rounds to see doctors and whatnot. Me, playing advocate for the opposing team, threw answers and thoughts into the air against the very IDEA of going to see doctors. But oh well, I think I've got to try and make it work somehow.
You know how sometimes, there's so many things floating in your head that you can't ever really get things in place? Prioritised?
Yeah, it feels like that sometimes.
Had to end up listening to a few motivational songs to give me a bit of a spirit boost and funnily enough, Eminem's "Lose Yourself" hit the right spot at the right time, along with Scribe's "Dreaming." Haven't heard those songs in ages although to be honest, Busta Rhymes's "We Made It" could have just about the same awesome job as well.
Meh. I'm tired today. Nights, all.
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