A friend once told me, "You only do this for the approval of everyone around you."
And I agree.
I'm the kind of person who, perhaps, has so little security in himself that I have to seek the approval of others just to get validation. To get the thumbs up, the nod, the gold stars from Teacher.
But, I mean, what's wrong with that? What's wrong with wanting approval? The whole world works on that principle. I guess it boils down to whether you're just looking for acceptance or something else.
For me, I look for that approval because I want my work to be recognised. I want to know that what I'm doing is good, is okay, in fact, its great.
Maybe I'm just being a real big crybaby right now, wanting everything acknowledged and all but you know, in the end, what does it matter if no one ever sees what you have done?
I think its probably a universal fear that when we die, we end up not leaving a mark on this world. That we fade away and soon after, we are only memories and tokens in someone's mind. We cease to exist, along with everything else. True? But isn't this vanity, won't you say? "You're so vain..you think this song is all about you"
It is.
But vanity...is vanity. All is vanity.
Sigh.
Today a friend told me, we're all born seeking glory. We all want glory for SOMETHING....... even when we say we don't want to be known - that could be translated to be a desire to be known as the humble one, the one who doesn't need recognition like everyone else.
ReplyDeleteTo cut to the chase I don't think there is anything wrong at all with wanting recognition - c'est naturale!
Does matter how that is pursued and done though.