To be honest, nothing much, really.
I find it funny how every time I get to the end of another year, I feel the need to summarise what the year has been all about. But do I really need to do it? Hm.
This year has been...interesting. Its definitely been fun and I've gotten a few things accomplished but at the end of the day, I do not think I can really look at back at the past year and said that I've done a lot. Because to be truthful, I have not.
I have not done very much this year. Biggest achievement is probably the Girlfriend moving down, the dance choreography and then that's about it.
This year seems to consist of me making a lot of weird and odd decisions that do not really seem to fit me. Never would I think to myself that I would voluntarily look at leaving dancing behind. But then again, I thought the same thing about my keyboard, saxaphone and guitar. Now, I strum a few strings, tickle a few ivories and have completely lost the diaphragmatic breathing required to toot a tenor saxaphone sufficiently.
Work this year has been a struggle. On and off on many different notes. I found certain parts of myself that I never knew existed and I gained extra cojones of steel when I verbally struck back at my superiors. Failure to find other jobs in the vicinity of Merlion City definitely did not help the situation leading to me having to stay with Company A. I really cannot complain though. The renumeration that I am receiving from this current occupation is fscking awesome. I'm getting my entire gross salary (read: GROSS and not NET just because I have not been privileged enough to get residency.)
Since I've been back here, my siblings and their friends seem quite amazed at how much I have travelled in such a short period of time. Started in antartic Dunners, then moved up to windy Welly, then Wangas, then behold...Merlion City. People seemed to wonder about the transitions from big town to small town to big city and they wonder how I managed to do it all.
Heck, I don't even know myself. I just told them, "You just do."
I've been thinking for quite some time now about how life is not really that full of oomph, if you get what I mean. Life, in fact, can be quite arbitrarily tediously boring.
I used to wonder about the whole "Life is your own destiny/predestination thing" and I always liked how because of my actions and my decisions, I've ended up where I am. Its not always exactly as I planned or exactly how I would like it to be but its actually not too bad. So whether its apathy talking or laziness or whatever...I did this.
I'm here in Merlion City (well, actually in the Land of the Long White Cloud for hols at the moment, just to be precise, you know...) because of what I have decided to do. Of course, as things always tend to descend into slight minor disasters around me (I say slight and minor as I have only gotten into mild amounts of excrement), I bear with the consequences but on the whole, I tend to play it quite safely. Phew for a logical mind.
Well, its 12.30a.m. on the 26th of December, 2011. In a few days, I'll be back in the relative heat and humidity of Merlion City.
Good night, all. And have a Merry Christmas.
Tootles.
Poet
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